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Sunday, March 4, 2012

Again it's all about you!

If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it yours forever. If
 it doesn't, then it was never meant to be.

Like seriously I don't know why it called it as a heartbreak, because Ifelt like I'm losing my soul instead of losing my hopes in life. It's kinda weird when people that can make you happy is the one that makes you cry. It's freaking awesome right?

Life can you please stop being so complicated? 

Suddenly his girlfriend texted me and I don't know why =.=

I miss you and I really do. Nevermind, soon I'll forget you like you had ever been in my life. How can I forget you when everything I did keep on reminding me about you? Tell me now and I'll do it so that I CAN EASILY FORGET YOU!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

I've tried, but it doesn't work -.-

Why it have to be so hard? Dear god, please be nice to me. I want to forget him as if he's never been in my life. I want to stop all this kind of feeling.

My heart often said this "If you've fallen down, today is the day you can wake up and try again." But I'm just wondering if I'm strong enough to face the reality that he's not mine anymore. Being with him is the only thing that can make me smile in my bad day :( How can I forget someone who's giving me a really big impact in my life? Someone please tell me!

Thinking of him is hard to stop, loving him is hard to regret, losing him is hard to accept. But trust me with all the hurts that I've felt, letting go is the most painful for me.

I still remember the time when you told me that you can't stand seeing me sad, so when you hurt me and I'm crying did you close your eyes?
I keep on crying and I just don't know why. I know that I'm just being stupid when I cried for him while he's laughing and try his best to treasure his life without me. Like shit I miss him. 

Whenever he texted me, I just can't tell him how much I need him. I just don't get it when his own girlfriend hurts him when to me he's being so freaking nice. I hope that the girl can appreciate him more.

He already chose her. There's nothing else that I could do Faiq! It's just being so freaking hard. How can I stop crying when everything I can see is JUST you? I don't know that it's gonna be this hard. No matter what, please be happy. The best thing in me is when you're being happy. 

Please have a good life ahead :)

Sunday, February 19, 2012

I'm leaving now :)

I'm wondering why I keep on thinking about him.  I should've forget him now. I should tell myself that he's so into her now. 

 My mum always told me that we've to accept the fate. Don't cry over it. Don't cry when the sun is gone, because the tears won't let you see the stars. But what can I do if the tears can't stop? Put a plaster on my eyes? It's not as easy as talking to the door =.= I miss him. But there's nothing that I could do. 

Breaking up? It happens kind of suddenly. One minute, you're talking happily on the phone, and the next minute, you're lying on the floor crying and all the good CDs are missing. Like seriously it happened.

 If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open you heart to. Like what I'm doing now.

Plus, I still remember when my teacher told me that there's a way to know whether we're a nice human being or not. How? It's when people around you're in a good life, you're being happy for them and didn't let the jealousy take the place. While when people around you are in trouble, you're crying for them. That how the human being should act. Even it's your enemies :)

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Something that I called as destiny!

The hardest thing to do is watching the one you love, love someone else.

I'm gonna forget all those things soon. It's just the matter of time. 
Maybe I'm not good enough for him. Or maybe I deserve someone better. No matter how hurt it was I'm not gonna be the old me. Guess what of all the lies that I've heard. "I love you even more than anything" was my favourite. Don't ask me why.
If one day we meet again, please don't say hi to me. I hope you're happy with her. Yeah maybe what she said is true. I'm not up to her level and that's why you leave me and chose her. Don't you? You should tell me right in front of my face I think.
I do love you and till now I do. It's just that I can't stand for something which I know was not mine anymore. Maybe I should leave. And that's the main reason why I asked my parents to decide where I have to further my study. Being here makes me realised that you're not mine anymore. For sure I'm not going to meet you again.
Btw thanks for every single thing that you've ever did for me. Since I'm not looking for my Mr. Perfect, You're my Mr. Good Enough.
Have a happy life ahead. Take a good care of her. Bye :')

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

What should I do now?

I want him to call me now! I want him now! Can you please tell him that I LOVE HIM? 

I'm so scared to sleep because whenever I woke up I've to accept the fate that he's not mine anymore. God can you please let me forget him. I've lost every single thing that I have when he's leaving me. It's too painful and I don't think that I'm able to face it :(

I want to sleep all the year so that I don't have to think about him. God why must be me? Why me? Why? I'm hurt enough and I'm not strong enough to go through this. 

How can I make it stop? Someone please tell me.

I'm trying so hard to forget you. So please don't come back. I'm happy when you're having your great life with her :)

Monday, February 13, 2012

I'm gonna be just fine without you!

I don't know what to do now. I wanted to cry but the tears just don't fall. I want to smile but I can feel the pain when someone's betraying me. Am i being so heartless? I just don't get it. How can I fall for him. I shouldn't say yes when he's asking me to be with him. Right?

Because at last I'm the one who'll be crying and live with all the pain :)

What if this time, I don't say hi first? What if this time, I don't text you back? What if this time, I leave you wondering? What if this time, you're the one left feeling fucked over?

Hello, sweetheart. Remember me? Its me the girl you tore to pieces, the one you broke like glass, the one that you told that you would never hurt. Remember me? Hello, dear. Its your worst enemy.
I don't know how can I be so freaking idiot when I chose to be with you. And now, there goes my trust on you.

Most of all, thanks a lot for being the latest guy who broke my heart :)

Lie to me? Thank youuuuuu!

It's a big regret when I started to love you. HAHA.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Don't ask me why!

OHH! How great my life is treating me now :')
Well, I hope there's a recipe for getting you out of my head. Like seriously I need to.
Sometimes I'm wondering why I'm being so stupid. It's weird when us girls usually ignore those boys who wants us and craving for those just don't.

Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you love me and you'll never hurt me. Unfortunately, I was wrong.
Guess what? I now compare you to all guys and you know what? They never measure up and not even close.  And the sad thing is that some of them are probably and obviously better than you bit I just can't see it. Haha. What a silly me =.=
Please go away because I don't want to be with you anymoreee:'(